My fourth novel is pretty much query ready. I decided to take a chance and participate in a Twitter pitch thing to test the waters. Lo and behold, an agency expressed interest in seeing my query.
I sent it off and waited, honestly thinking, “It’s just the very first query, best not to get my hopes up.” I’m used to rejection, it’s what I expected.
Imagine my shock when they asked to see the full manuscript. That’s right, a full freakin’ manuscript request! Woot, woot! I took some time to celebrate my first request ever.
Don’t worry, I’ve clunked back down to earth pretty hard now. I sent the full manuscript out, now I can only wait. This could take months. So I sent out a few more queries to continue testing the waters. Then I got some long-awaited feedback from a few stray readers and my ego is in the toilet. One reader I appreciate very much because she is honest and will tell me what she really thinks instead of lame feedback like, “Yeah…it was good.” That’s not useful. Her feedback is helpful, but also hard to take. I tried to prepare for it, I knew it was coming, but it’s still painful when someone pans your baby. It’s not that she hated it, but she didn’t say much about what she actually liked. I’ve come to the conclusion that the best readers give you good feedback about what does work, equally alongside what doesn’t. Finding that happy medium is hard, not many know how to do this. So the feedback made me freeze up. I don’t know what to do with it right so I set it aside to consider for later.
Now I’m just worried my manuscript wasn’t as ready for querying as I’d thought. Too late now, it’s in the hands of any agent. And honestly, I can’t make it better just yet, so maybe it’s good as it can be at this particular time?
Worrying gets me nowhere, this is why I’m going to start plotting a new WIP while I work on revisions for another manuscript. Always stay busy, that’s the writer’s secret to dealing with all this waiting. *nods*